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I love my life!

volunteergirl1998 — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 02:31:16 +0000

So i find it hillarious that when God closes one door he opens another window. thanks God!

Does God Still Teach Us Things?!

volunteergirl1998 — Thu, 25 Mar 2010 02:16:29 +0000

So I ask myself this question every now and then
Does God still try to teach his people things?!
I believe the answer to this question is yes! =D
God has been teaching me a lot of things lately but i think there are ten that he is most persistant in trying to teach me. I also believe that if God is teaching you something you will find evidence biblically to back it up
So here goes….

10. Patience: Okay i know everyone says all the time that God is trying to teach them patience, but it’s the truth. I am the least patient person you will EVER meet. There are many things he is teaching me patience with. One is with my love life. See there is this boy who will remain nameless who definently should know who he is since i’ve talked to him tons in the past two days But anyways I really am starting to like him and i think that god is trying to teach me to be patient with that so i don’t screw things up like i usually do. I think also that he wants me to be patient and let said guy chase me which i hope he will But here are verses to back up the patience thing
“Rejoice in hope, be patient in affliction, be persistant in prayer”. -Romans 12:12
That one i think God is showing me that even though i’m hurting b/c of things that happen in my life that he is there and to rejoice in the happy things in my life, be patient through my struggles, and to keep talking to my Daddy.
“Young women of Jersuselam, I charge you, by the gazelles and the wild does of the field; do not stir up or awaken love until the appropriate time.” -Song of Songs 2:7
Okay so i have no idea what the gazelle thing means but more traditionally this is talking about sex but also i think God is telling me to be patient and true love with find me when i’m ready and when i can truley appreciate it.
9. God Never Fails.
I think God is trying to teach me to trust in him and lean on him and not depend on people of this world.
“May your unfailing love rest upon us Lord, For we put our hope in you” Psalm 33:22
This just reminds me that God’s love never fails and he will always be there for me so i should put everything in him
8. Guard Your Heart
God wants me to guard my heart. He doesn’t like seeing me hurt. That makes me happy too. God never wants to see his daughter hurting so he wants me to guard my heart. Also i am guarding it b/c every male in my life has always hurt me or let me down including my earthly father.
“Above all else guard your heart for it is the source of life” -Proverbs 4:23
7. Be a good friend.
This one is hard for me mostly because i don’t ever want to be let down. I have been let down before though. I am the type of person who will do absolutely anything for you if you don’t burn me but i’ve been burned quite a lot recently.
“There is no greater love than this, to lay one’s life down for his friends” -John 15:13
This just reminds me what Jesus did for me and I should be willing to do for others.
6. I am His princess
God thinks i’m amazing and he thinks i’m beautiful and i am a princess. that makes me so happy. so guys treat me like the Daughter of the King i am!
“Listen o daughter consider and give ear; forget your people and your father’s house. The king is enthralled with your beauty honor him for he is your lord.” -Psalm 45:10-11
Wow. God is ENTHRALLED with my beauty. Oh geez. Enthralled means your speechless. God made me but he is still speechless with my beauty how awesome is that. Also i should forget everything around me.
5. Honor my mother.
this one is super hard for me. me and mom we clash. we are very similar too. so we fight a lot but god is slowly but surely teaching me that mom is right and even if she’s not god placed her in my life to direct me.
“Honor your father and mother” -Ephesians 6:2
4. Confessing my sins and shortcomings to close spiritual friends.
Okay this one i love because i have two really good friends one younger and one older well three really. One is Tyler Neas. He’s a youth director friend of mine and has gone through a lot of the same stuff i am presently dealing with and he prays for me. i love him like a brother. the second is Paul newby. My best friend in the entire world. i can tell him anything even that i used to cut. i love him and he’s always gonna be there for me. The last one is Michael Pearce my last bff//lil bro. he is wonderful and i can tell him anything
“Therefore confess your sins to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed. The pryaer of the righteous is very powerful” James 5:16
I love this verse. pretty much God is tellin’ you to talk to your friends about what you need prayer for and to pray for each other.
3: Don’t lose your temper.
okay so as ya’ll know i’m a redhead. I def have the stereotypical redhead temper. it sucks but its true. my fuse is pretty long though when it comes to most things. but i need to realize that i need to stay calm.
“Be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to get angry” -James 1:19
I need to stay calm and not get angry as easily.
2: Don’t Cuss
Okay this is something i have struggled with a lot lately. i hang out with people who cuss occasionally. and my ex boyfriend’s family cussed 24/7 which was whack. but i’m doing tons better and i’m so proud of myself.
“The tongue that heals is a tree of life, but a devious tongue breaks the spirit” Proverbs 15:4
This is just sayin’ that if you speak ill things you’ll hurt people.
“How can i curse someone God has not cursed?” Numbers 23:8
1: Love God.
Well this is simple and i think i do it pretty well. i’m just supposed to love my creator yaay!
Peace and Grace.

Terrific Tuesday! =)

volunteergirl1998 — Wed, 24 Mar 2010 00:29:11 +0000

So today was pretty amazing just like yesterday was. i woke up and texted Logan =) he made me feel happy. he asked me if i was feeling better. he called me sweetie which made my heart happy. =) Then i read his blog and it was phenominal. he is such a good friend and i’m proud to call him my friend. he is so adorable. like earlier i was with kristen at mcdonalds and i was talkin’ to him on aim and he was like are you gonna be mad if i fall asleep? i was like awww no go to sleep. it was adorable. i really am starting to like him…& it sorta scares me. i don’t wanna be let down again. i’m so sick of it. but i think he’s different and i don’t think he’ll let me down. he’s a great guy who’s heart follows after what god wants. but i think i’m gonna go eat. more tomorrow i am really excited about getting to know him better. i hope when he comes to TN this summer we can hang out. he’s adorable and so sweet and nice. he ever hates the gators lol well i’m gonna go eat now…

Peace and Love.

Dating: Is It Worth It?!

volunteergirl1998 — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 20:21:17 +0000

Okay…so i feel like i’ve been thinking about this a lot lately…like my dating like is all kinds of whack. Like I used to be that girl who dated a lot but the relationships were never very meaningful because most guys only want one thing…SEX. this is so dumb. Like even the “good christian guys” i know were like that. Uhm hello do you even read that thing that you carry around with you. Like seriously grow a brain please? Another thing that confuses me to no end is how most men want to marry a virgin but if their hs g/f wants to remain a virgin til marriage they dump her. NEW FLASH::::::WOMEN WANT TO MARRY A VIRGIN TOO! Like seriously I for one don’t want to have to worry about oh geez on my honeymoon am i gonna get some nasty disease. uhm no thanks i’ll just stay single. But recently i had my heart broken by one of these said guys b/c i would not “give him any”. Uhm your loss…just sayin’. I’m a great girl with so much to offer. LIke i’m smart funny and cute. i love sports and actually know what i’m talking about when i talk about sports. and i also have a girly side. i’m def one of a kind. Oh and i have this overwhelming burning passionate love for my lord and savior.
So for my next part of my blog i’m gonna talk about my break up and how bad it hurts. okay i thought i was in love with this kid (for the record i wasn’t) but he completely shattered me and luckily the friends i didn’t push away were there to show me how amazing and completely wonderful my Daddy and Savior are. God put me back together in a few short days and it was amazing. I now know his power and his love for me and i know he was working in that break up and i just want to thank god for that. it was amazing. And i am so thankful me and Josh are able to be friends.
So i just read this book called Dateable by Justin Lookadoo and Haley DiMarco and it was really eye opening. Not only did i realize by reading this book that i am a princess and high favored but i also learned that god only wants the best for me. here’s a rundown of what i learned by chapter in my own words so it might be a little ADHD
Chapter 1: IT WILL NOT LAST!
Whoa. When i read this chapter i was like what the heck dude. way to put a damper on the situation but then i thought about it. if you know it will not last and as a girl i used to go into a relationship planning my perfect life. i now know that it probably won’t last unless it is the guy god wants me to be with so i just have fun and don’t get my hopes up it makes the relationship a lot less stressful and i have a lot more fun. Also J. Lookadoo tells you not to fall in love with love and thats what i did with my last relationship. Now i have one relationship and i know what true love with my heavenly father is and so its a lot better.
Chapter 2: How much you put in determines how much it will hurt when it ends.
this is something i had a hard time with as well b/c i usually put my all into something i care about. that’s just my personality. i would spend money time and whatever else was necessary to keep the relationship b/c i honestly didn’t used to think my life had any value unless i had a b/f. wow how wrong i was. i mean i look around at my youth director from hs and i’m like whoaaa she’s one of the best and happiest women i know and she has NEVER BEEN MARRIED and doesn’t have a b/f. I don’t need a guy. I’m amazing just the way i am Also i am around countless girls that totally fall apart after a relationship b/c they’re given “EVERYTHING” sexually. and it breaks them.
Chapter 3: The way it begins will be the way it ends
the mistakes i make here are i fall wayyy too fast and hard and then it ends abruptly and i’m devestated. that is all i really have to say about the matter.
Chapter Four: If i will do it for you i will do it to you
this is not just about dating type relationships. if a friend will like to a friend//parent for me she’s totally gonna lie to me. also my ex…josh would talk crap about his past g/f’s and how weird they were and i know that he’s now doing the same thing to me. it sucks but its true. i just have to deal with that fact. o well right.
Chapter 5: Guys will lie to you to get what they want.
its sad but true. guys lie. well so do girls but thats not the point. i was lied to by josh and it hurts but its the truth. one big lie was he got me this adorable cross for Christmas i loved it and i knew he didn’t have much money so i asked where he got the cross and he said a jewelry store. i found out from a friend who is friends with one of his really good friends that he got it at walmart and lied to me about it. my thing about that was if your gonna lie to me about where you go a present what else are you gonna lie to me about. i pray for him about that and when i confronted him about it he was just like you didn’t need to know. yeah but i felt like he thought i was so shallow that i wouldn’t like it if it came from walmart but its whatever.
Chapter 6: Girls will lie to themselves to get what they want.
This is o so true. i have lied and been like he loves me i know he does even when friends or mom has been like he’s using you i’d lie to myself and say no way he really does love me.
Chapter 7: If what your showing ain’t on the menu then keep it covered up
I don’t really struggle with this. i dress very modestly. but some girls are like well they treat me like a piece of meat. well then PUT SOME CLOTHES ON!!!!!!!!! thats all i have to say about that.
Chapter 8 & 9: Girls/Guys control how far you go…
true story. both girls and guys should set boundaries before getting into a relationship. if you get “turned on” my making out then just hold hands and kiss and stop at that! actually everyone should stop at that b/c anything more than kissing is a sexual sin and shouldn’t happen until after marriage.
Chapter 10: Sex Games 101
this is about making out and tickling and wrestling. this is not allowed cuz it always eventually leads to more. and thats bad. so don’t.
Chapter 11: Boys will be boys
BULL CRAP! i hate that excuse well i am a guy so what? and your also a christian but girls have to realize this a make boundaires.
Chapter 12: Good Girls go for bad boys
thats true for most. its a rebellion thing. not for me i love a nice guy and the guy i’m starting to like is the nicest.
Chapter 13: Girls shut up and be mysterious
i love this chapter. it helped me out the most. b/c i was bad at it. but girls should let the guy lead. with everything whether its making the first moves or spiritually. and i made a promise to god that i will not be chasing any more guys i am waiting for a guy to chase me. Guys grow up and make the first move if you want that cute nice sweet christian girl. she probably is waiting and wishing that you will make the move. just take a leap of faith what the worst that will happen o you’ll be shut down. no big.
Chapter 14: Guys stand up and be a man
see above. guys just take that leap. Also, if your friends tease you or make fun of your girl STAND UP FOR HER!!!!!!!! b/c if your friends are like that then there jerks anyways.
Chapter 15: If you wanna play you gotta pay
okay here’s the deal here…if you wanna relationship you gotta be prepared to take risks and put that person first. Also you gotta be prepared to take time out for that person especially if its gonna be a long distance thing.
Chapter 16: The Porn Biz.
Weird i know. but its true. enough of that just don’t look at it.
Chapter 17: Dateablility
Are you dateable? i am now. thanks to j. lookadoo i love this book its awesome. i know now to just wait for the guy and he’ll find me when the time is right
So is dating worth it?
yes it totally is when you wait for that perfect guy or girl just be patient.
Love and Peace.

Marvelous Monday

volunteergirl1998 — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 00:53:46 +0000

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Hey all. Today has been a really good day. i didn’t really do a whole lot except for homework and i did talk to this awesome guy his name is Logan, and I’m starting to like him. Wow i really did just blush writing that because i know he’ll probably read this and when it comes to guys i can get really shy. anyways he is really cool and sweet and he is really into God which is so so cool. i just love talking to him. he seems like he is really easy to talk to. And he seems like he doesn’t judge me which is awesome. I may get to hang out with him when he comes to TN this summer and i’m really excited about it. he’s super cute too. wow i sound like a 13 year old kid. lol. but anyways i’ve just been on the computer pretty much all day i went out to lunch with Allison earlier. I’m so glad we are starting to actually get along. its nice. another amazing thing is me and my ex boyfriend are getting along and starting to become friends which is really good cuz i’m glad i finally have closure. i missed him though. we were such good friends i think he’ll prolly end up being one of my best friends but i think i’m gonna go talk to Logan yaay